On the importance of black magic on the ascension path

One of the consequences of this curse (which has been with me from childhood but only revealed itself as an actual, literal curse once I began actively fighting it and trying to heal) is arrested development and delayed adulthood.

Trying to heal within a structure of sabotage, abuse, manipulation, deceit, and expertly hidden covert abuse has actually given me disabilities where I had none. Left me with brain damage and serious trauma.

All of my attempts to deeply heal with shadow work were expertly sabotaged, as I've described before on this blog. I was actively prevented from healing. Interfered with so expertly that it gives me chills to even think about it.

Living under coercive control for so long, and never having had the chance to develop and actually heal, has meant that I had never had a chance. Never given the footing I needed to stand on my own.

It has taken enormous willpower and strength to avoid simply moving from one abusive, controlling situation to another. I have been hounded on all sides by abuse, by covert narcissists eager to prey on my collapsed, disabled, vulnerable body.

One of the things that has saved my life - literally, actually, saved my life - was learning black magic. And I think it's important for all disabled or otherwise marginalized people to learn black magic.

Most of the criticism of this work comes from privileged people who have never actually been under a curse like mine. They have no idea what it's like to be prevented from doing shadow work. They have no idea what God is outside their distorted, privileged bubble of able-bodied 5D frequency bliss.

If a woman in an Afghanistan village was given the instructions to Bagalamukhi spellcasting and sadhana right now, you can bet she would ask Bagalamukhi to do what Bagalamukhi does best: violence.

A peasant Afghan woman doesn't need stillness or forgiveness, and she doesn't have the safety or support she would need for her nervous system to relax enough to actually purge karma. There is no safe holding container for her to do shadow work.

She. Needs. Abusers. Dead. She needs to be physically safe. She needs to not be surrounded by glaring men with fists and guns. She needs to not be raped in her bed tonight. She needs protection NOW.

What do you think Bagalamukhi would do if a disadvantaged, trapped, powerless woman in Afghanistan called on Her help? Do you think She would smile benevolently, wave Her mace like a fairy wand, and bring peace and good tidings to all the Taliban fighters in that village?

Fuck no. Bagalamukhi would answer this hypothetical Afghan woman's plea with savage ferocity. The men around that woman would suddenly find their lives and health falling apart. They might die, if that was what it took. Bagalamukhi would respond to an inherently unjust system with the only language that a polluted society with structural inequity understands: violence.

America isn't as different from Afghanistan as we'd like to believe. For those of us who are disabled or chronically ill, this country's increasingly psychotic greed and capitalist selfishness, and the increasingly naked psychopathy of our two-party system, is closing us in our coffins. The U.S. is a rarity among developed nations in that it refuses to support universal healthcare. Tax money that should be helping people like me is instead being spent on foreign wars or actual genocides.

If not for being able to learn black magic, I would quite literally be dead. I would not be alive to write this blog post. Black magic has kept me fed and kept a roof over my head. 

Black magic is violence. This occult violence the only language that this hateful, evil capitalist system understands, when it comes to my right to stay alive.

The curse that I am under is not completely broken and I may never completely recover or reclaim my lost adulthood, but every time I own my rage I take one more shaky step towards freedom. A freedom that this corrupt system never wanted me to have.

Ascension is self-love. Self-love looks like being a troublemaker when you live in a dystopian society.

Outlaw

O Anointrix of Kings, Kallah Messiah

Bride of Christ, Apostle of Asherah

Your womb blood is the sacrifice

The baptism

And the cleansing of all sin

You are Christ the Redeemer

Who breaks the shackles of our shame

As you broke yours

You are the Christ of Ecstasy and Grail Mother

The Light-Bringer Mary Lucifera

Whose body is the Tree of Life

Merciful Sophia, liberate us

From the chains of self-sacrifice

Hidden One, Secret One

Resurrect us into new life

On the Ankh Cross of Isis

Bless us, Savioress

Heretic Qadisha

Renegade Rose

Scapegoated Saint

Rebel of the Gospels

Holy Shekinah!

Hail to the Feminine Christ!

Hail to the Holy Grail!

All glory to you, Miriam of Magdala, Jewel of Galilee!

Today is the feast day of Mary Magdalene, she who was known as "hamartolos" during her lifetime - outlaw, sinner, criminal. Note that her feast day falls on the 22nd of July - 22 is a symbol of Twin Flame Union.

All of our saints are heretics and outlaws, just like modern true Twin Flames.

I wasn't going to post anything for Mary Magdalene's feast day, because I don't deal with her regularly (the work we did in 2023 was enough, I thought), and in fact repeatedly tried to avoid posting this. But she made it very clear that she wanted this up.

She says she is a renegade who has been appropriated by false priestesses who misuse her for money, clout, and clients. Who disguise sex addiction, greedy sexual marketing to vulnerable people, and subservience to "alpha males" as Magdalene magic.

She wanted to make it clear - and I didn't know about this, but subsequent research confirmed it - she is not at all pleased that people project their eugenics fixation onto her sacred daughter and their royal bloodline. She is very angry that these so-called Magdalene priestesses have projected their narcissistic eugenics ideas onto her precious daughter, who took the form of Sara-la-Kali to minister to the most underprivileged, marginalized, and abandoned groups of people.

She wants to make it clear that her love is for everyone, just like her Eros is for everyone. This nasty spiritual privilege masquerading as empowerment is not who Mary Magdalene is. This is not how her Sacred Eros expresses itself. Her Grail bloodline is not an excuse for magical eugenics, and she for damn sure is not second to Yeshua.

The Templars worshipped Mary Magdalene and Mother Mary next to God, and made no mention of Yeshua. Their prayer went, "I pray to God that he will pardon your sins as he pardoned them to St. Mary Magdalene and the thief who was put on the cross." 

(See what I wrote here and here about the patriarchal demiurge who usurped the Goddess.)

Tell me again how Mary Magdalene is a role model for pick-me groupies who want to go about priestessing for sugar daddy males.

She is not the apostle of Jesus Christ. She is the Christ. She is Beloved of the Cathars, Beloved of the Essenes, Beloved of the Templars, the divine incarnation of Asherah, and the Woman Messiah.

She is the Christ in Nature.

She says these women would be scared shitless if they actually had an encounter with her, and she does not take kindly to her name being used for deception and manipulation. What they're doing is no different from what the Church did to Mary Magdalene.

She says her and Yeshua's "royal bloodline" is about humble service and celebrating the divinity inherent in human imperfection, not eugenics. It is especially important to point that out now, in a world where oligarchs and their vampiric dynasties are doubling down on their capitalist rape game at all costs, and being goaded on by evil war criminals like Tony Blair, who recently claimed that caring for the long term disabled is "unsustainable".

There are too many New Age witch influencers who secretly agree with that sentiment. Who have no awareness of their able-bodied privilege or sexual privilege, and think tossing around terms like "Grail" and "bloodline" means they get spiritual license to introduce eugenics into their "divine motherhood" goals. You have no idea how many people buy into this shit.

More than one Twin Flame school out there not only claims affinity with Mary Magdalene but also throws around the idea of "Golden Children" as somehow a way to advance human consciousness. Not going to name names, but...more than one Twin Flame school is buying into this evil bullshit. Not just that one infamous cult you're probably thinking about, there are at least two other Twin Flame schools that buy into the "Golden Children" idea, and it's absolutely eugenics disguised as spiritual awakening.

This is the exact opposite of Mary Magdalene's path and the way she uses her power. This is the exact opposite of the Beauty and Grace that her holy daughter brings.

Mary Magdalene is a rebel. A paradigm-breaking earthquake who shakes up the status quo. And the sex magic grift of manipulative false priestesses in "union" with narcissistic tantra-bros is THE DEFINITION OF THE STATUS QUO.

Beware whose name you call in service to your egoic, low vibrational agendas.

Mary Magdalene wants to speak directly to any disabled or chronically ill people who read this blog post. She wants you to know that your blood and the "bad genes" it carries DOES NOT LACK the Sangreal. She actually means it. She taught me how to begin awakening it within my own body and I'm disabled, and she wants to teach you too. She takes personal offense to the idea that disabled or chronically ill people are separated from her abundant spiritual grace.

The Feminine Christ lives. The Feminine Christ loves all of humanity. And she cannot be colonized in service to the patriarchy, not even by supposedly genetically matched, sexually liberated "unions".

Discernment on the Twin Flame path

"At some point, you might encounter the miracle of manifestation. Manifestation is the visualization of the energy of a situation and it is subject to constant change. This is the meanest of all spiritual gifts. It is closer to sexual excitation than spiritual evolvement. Many people end their work at this level, reveling in the thrills and chills produced by some moronic spirit who is totally earthbound. If he were more, he would not allow himself to be used for such low purposes. This should be surrendered so you can go on to real achievement in growing. It must also be noted that those captivated by this kind of spook-ridden entertainment are on as low a level as the spirits they see and hear.

"This is what commonly passes for "spirituality." Rather, it is a drug that stunts growth."

― Swami Rudrananda

While Rudi was practicing a fundamentally different spirituality than mine (transcendent, patriarchal, not a Twin Flame, etc), I love some of his insights. This is a huge problem in the world of manifestation & occult hustle, where the principles of the Law of Attraction - which is actually a fundamental and neutral law at the center of reality - are distorted in dangerous ways. The Law of Attraction has at this point been appropriated by people who are all programmed into a solipsistic feedback loop that grooms them into Abuse Consciousness.

This same pattern of shallow spirituality is why I see entire occult communities bypass shadow work. Sometimes it looks like chasing after their egoic desires, often dealing with imposter spirits/hungry ghosts masquerading as deities. Sometimes it looks like false virtue and politically correct ideas about magic, spirits and deities, which also leads them collectively into dangerous traps.

And this is also why most people who claim to be on the Twin Flame path are actually not on it at all, which pains me to say because I like to be inclusive. But too many people just...really want their little person of obsession. They really want it to be a pretty sparkly fairytale and will latch onto any energetically magical connection that makes them feel sparkly. They really want to prove a point to their naysayers. Or they get mad that it's not easy and decide to instead "manifest" a karmic partner and then dress up that relationship with pseudo-spiritual language.

It's led to a false light "twin flame" collective powered by astral hookers and black magic. Be very careful of the energy you're connecting with. 

The Twin Flame path, like any real spirituality, cannot be driven by our hidden agendas. There is too much at stake. The more you ascend vibrationally, the more power you have and the more potent your energy body becomes. And the more your reality relies on your ability to remain in balance. If you are not purifying yourself on the way, you are going to be a MAGNET for delusion. I have seen so-called "twin flames" who are actually linked together by sexual parasites. I have seen demonic false light contracts and a lot of spiritual bypassing.

I understand that people get disillusioned on the spiritual path, and disheartened from realizing how extremely difficult it is to heal the automated processes of our subconscious. But this does not mean we give up and take whatever shiny candy that our incomplete spiritual growth has yielded at this stage. It does not mean we settle for convenient magic because we lost faith that the real magic of the Soul exists.

It's very easy to fall for the shiny candy. The deep unconscious, especially, is so difficult to access that even dedicated self-healers will fall into denial, distraction, or repeatedly fall asleep in meditation. Keep going. Keep your focus on God, not your Twin Flame. We are talking about leaving the cycle of reincarnation, a dangerous and extremely tricky process. You won't find the motive to walk through that dark unknown unless you are doing it for yourself. 

When you realize that your true desire is to know your oneness with the Source you've always longed for, that this is your true Lover and true source of comfort, you will want nothing else but to continue on this path.

Propylaia

Be very sensitively attuned to the company you keep as you ascend to Harmonious Twin Flame Union. If you are around people who don't believe in your Twin Flame connection or who are in separation from their Source, you are more likely to experience vibrational interference with your intuition.

This love is sensitive and not made for an emotionally shut off world. You may open yourself up to psychic interference and misdirection when you hang out with people who believe Twin Flame separation is real.

The False Light Twin Flame community

You can get thrown off course if you deal with the existing "twin flame" collective. Almost all of the current information out there on Twins is parasited and misleading. I've watched over the years as most real Twin Flames went in one of two directions:

1) Into greater authenticity and presence, and firmly away from the limelight AND the "twin flame" community

2) After reaching a certain level of unity and ascension, they would stagnate. They would then become dissociated and delude themselves further as a veil was pulled over the third eye...and eventually enter separation even if they had previously been in Union and very "high vibrational".

The real ones don't stay in the limelight for very long, and there are good reasons for that.

The entire twin flame community is insane and trapped in a false light. The coaches are frauds who are vampirically feeding on people's delusions and wounds, as are the "angels" and "masters" they are channeling to make money.

Most of these coaches are not with their real Twin Flames, because real Twin Flames cannot deal with that community. Once enough healing has happened, true Twins leave that wider community because they cannot be a vibrational match to such a parasited and degraded consciousness. Being part of that wider community can destroy real Unions.

So real Unions either eventually leave the twin flame collective, or they stay there out of lingering greed and fear...and get destroyed.

I've seen it happen many times.

It has made me sad to see some previously inspiring Twin Flame teachers fall prey to their own delusions after a while and become thoroughly numbed out, dissociated, and no different from the transcendence-focused patriarchal paradigms of enlightenment that the Twin Flame path is supposed to be an antidote to.

The Underworld Gates

This is not an airy dreamy path of golden sky palaces and radiant violet light emanating from a body in perfect asana. This is not the path of premature unity consciousness before fragmentation, division and grounded human turmoil have done necessary work. This is not a path of denial and spiritual bypassing.

This is a path of the gut and the sex, the womb and the tomb, the erupting volcano and the rich volcanic soil that creates new land.

Twin Flame ascension is an embodied path. A human path of realization without any magical specialness, without any pretenses of perfection. It is the humblest love imaginable.

It is also not what you think it will be. The Twin Flame template that my Twin and I have is NOT what the mainstream TF community is teaching, and awakening to that has been a mindfuck on many levels. Most of the accepted ideas about Twin Flames out there are derivatives and reversals of the Truth. Or at least, the Truth of our Twin Flame template.

Every step of the way, I see yet again how different our Twin Flame path is, and how the distortions and reversals of the false light twin flame community and its many, many "teachers" would always, inevitably, lead us not only into separation but into spiritual destruction.

Be very careful about the company you keep as you walk this path, because literally everything out there is partially misleading.

Even worse, there can be dangerous psychic interference and sabotage if the "teachers" are unconsciously invested in sabotaging your Union out of their own greedy desire for your energy. Yeah, that's a thing.

Parting Ways Before Reaching The Hidden Gate

At some point you may need community, we all do. I needed Twin Flame friends at one point, and that was certainly way better than compromising and hanging out with people who secretly hated my Twin Flame connection and envied it.

But even with my dear Twin Flame friends, a sacred division happened. Where we tried to walk together on similar Twin Flame healing journeys, the unpredictable Beloved erupted between us and said no, you part ways here.

And my friends and I, though we still love each other, are now walking completely individual, mutually incompatible paths. We couldn't walk back into the Garden of Eden while still trying to hold onto each other, anymore than we could with our Twins.

The mystery unfolds differently for each one of us. Harmonious Union is as unique as the Twins experiencing it.

By allowed the great Beloved to split us apart, my Twin Flame friends and I were saved from spiritual dogma. We were saved from unconsciously giving our power away to each other. We were able to let go of a trap that would have blocked us from our precious private truths.

There is no received truth or communal revelation in Twin Flame spirituality, and most of what's said about it is distorted trash. Even if you have been part of a Twin Flame community for some time and it helped you, it's important for you to discern when it's time to walk away and do your own thing.

I cannot emphasize this enough: your Union is not like your friends' Unions. These are not ordinary human relationships, they are Unions that each hold a fragment of God. Each Union is healing something in the collective consciousness and is totally different from all other Unions.

You are calling in big energy. Each Harmonious Union is literally a castle with its own kingdom, and when that's birthing everything else falls away from your reality. Including your dear spiritual friends who are on their paths to their own Harmonious Unions.

And you have to break free from the herd to find this hidden treasure that is your Harmonious Twin Flame Union. The community that once supported you can turn into a cage, blocking your growth. Because at some point you'll realize that all of the teachers, even if they appear to be in real Union, unconsciously want your energy and can't fully accept that the God in you is different from the God in them. You'll realize that all twin flame communities are stuck on getting their hands on the physical counterpart. On obsessing over another ego-driven human being. Even in the twin flame communities that talk about inner work, this codependency inevitably pops up.

At that point you will realize that your real desire is Union with the inner God, and this twin flame community wants you to worship an external God and external twin flame dogma that the community has come to rely on.

You must follow another way and it is only Her who can lead you there. She will not reveal this treasure before prying eyes. You cannot access the Hidden Gate guarded by Hekate Propylaia while you are relying on these external sources of validation. You cannot receive Her gift while you're in polluted company.

Hekate has a secret key that opens a secret gate and She guards it carefully, even from your conscious awareness. It's the gate that nobody can walk through except you and your Twin Flame (and even to describe it that way is misleading).

Hekate Propylaia is the Gateless Gate found on the pathless path. An impenetrable Gate that isn't what it seems, with a lock and key that you can't see.

Are you willing yet to give up everything you know and find out if Love is real?

Chthonia

My destruction at the hands of soul-rape can also be described as soul murder, and in fact other people have described it as exactly that. There are ways to kill someone while keeping them breathing, and I have been killed. There are ways to torture someone to the point of insanity, through occult means, and leave no visible mark. I have been tortured this way.

It started way before I even met my Twin Flame. An old curse and a long initiation in the Underworld.

Hekate has been with me since I was in the 8th grade, probably even earlier. Looking back, I see the signs of Her everywhere, in ways that are unmistakable and real. And because of this ancient soul murder, I have suspected She came to me as Hekate Chthonia, who understands the Dead and the touch of evil.

Who understands the messy, dark Underworld awakening of the Infernal Divine Feminine.

Hekate Chthonia has been guarding my corpse until it can be resurrected. She is the dark mercy that pulls me out of denial and makes me truly see the absolute evil that has harmed me and hunted me. 

When I tried to ask people for help, when I tried to tell my Tantra teachers that my spiritual awakening was happening in the Talas (the realms of the Hindu Underworld - the Talas also show up as corresponding demonic chakras in the human body), I was gaslit, shut down, and victim-blamed to the point of becoming suicidal.

But the Chthonic Queen knows horror. She knows soul destruction and She knows death. So the only being who didn't gaslight me was Her, the Mistress of the Night. She took my hand, lifted up Her torch, and led me straight to my corpse.

Here I can feel the bottomless shame of being an abuse victim and murder victim, the bottomless shame of being so violently hated. The shame of not being allowed to use the word "victim", the shame of being the victim of occult attack that is extremely difficult to prove.

The corpse that Chthonia guards not only represents an ancient, unforgotten crime against my soul, but another timeline. Another reality. It's not just a soul part, it is quite literally the gateway to the divine spark within me.

The hideous crime has now become an ugly portal to Self-realization. It is a dangerous and life-threatening Soul-making, a down-in-the-darkness awakening that is quite different from the awakenings described in nondual communities. It is the ancient path of the Divine Feminine, before she was distorted into a candy cane female doll in the "spirituality" of the false light.

Hekate Chthonia holds the infernal key to this corpse's secrets.

She holds me too, because my heart will shatter as all the ancient lies on my Soul are exposed.

Every Harmonious Union is unique.

Almost every book or set of teachings on Twin Flames is subtly misleading in one way or another.

Just remember that people project their ideology onto these deep soul-expanding truths, so everywhere you turn, you're going to get some truth mixed up with ideology.

It was Twin Flame ideology (mixed up with society's ideology about relationships) that sabotaged us and ripped us apart. Because everyone who has taught or written about this phenomenon has projected their own bullshit onto it, and that forms a bunch of competing egregores that people like my Twin and I unknowingly linked up with psychically. We were getting unconsciously influenced by collective thought patterns that had nothing to do with our Union.

All the labels and various hierarchies and stages of the Twin Flame path are just...more ideology. More bullshit that someone invented, and now people talk about it like it's real dogma.

My advice? Trust your experience. You can listen to any teacher you want on YouTube or read any book you want, but know that NONE of them are fully accurate. It's much safer to do this with your soul/God as the guiding light. Because each Twin Flame Union is totally, totally unique. Every united Twin Flame couple I've met has a different story, even if all of them did the same brutal shadow work to get there. And my Twin Flame and I have yet another dynamic...just like you and your Twin do.

It's a deeply hidden connection that is found through surrender to the revealing process, and it is hidden for your own protection. Nobody can see it the way you and your Twin can see it because the real vibration cannot be understood through a list of signs, a list of behaviors, or a list of spiritual ideas.

This is a vibration. A secret vibration that is known experientially, not intellectually. It is advaitabhavana, the feeling-sense of not being dual. Not being two.

There are no ancient texts about Twin Flames, although this is the most ancient human story of them all. The Twin Flame path was an oral tradition in many cultures, and now those oral traditions can only be contacted through the inner realms. No trace of them is left in the physical world, except hidden in code. Any texts that our Twin Flame ancestors wrote were lost to time - perhaps deliberately destroyed.

We are reviving something that died. We are healing an ancient devastation so old and so deep that facing this ancient betrayal alone can make the heart shatter into a million pieces.

That is why this blog is called Twin Flame Reclamation. Because the Twin Flame path is not new, it just appears new because the thief got away with their con for so long that the thief looks like the owner. The false way of separation consciousness looks like The Way Things Have Always Been.

Harmonious Twin Flame Union is the revival and reclamation of a Love that was sundered long ago, buried without a trace, and covered up skillfully. On this path of restoration we have to rely on our intuition and our willingness to surrender to Divine will, because all the texts of this path have disappeared.

Even if those texts still existed, or were uncovered in a new archaeological dig, that wouldn't do you much good because even the most skillful written explanations can trap you in the mind and subtly misguide you.

And Hollywood movies cannot portray the depth of this love either, though on the surface it looks like they understand how to film epic love stories. Once you're attuned to the Twin Flame vibration, you can dig deeper into the consciousness behind films and television. You'll find that it's manipulative as fuck, and it likes control, not surrender.

So really, you cannot find the model for your Harmonious Union anywhere outside of yourself, your authentic relationship with God, and your secret soul path.

Be YOURSELF.

Let your love story be as different from everyone else's as it needs to be.

Dhumavati Approves

"Our strategy should be not only to confront empire, but to lay siege to it. To deprive it of oxygen. To shame it. To mock it. With our art, our music, our literature, our stubbornness, our joy, our brilliance, our sheer relentlessness - and our ability to tell our own stories. Stories that are different from the ones we're being brainwashed to believe."

― War Talk

I don't care if Arundhati Roy is an atheist, this is exactly how Dhumavati shows up in my life. She is the enemy of the corporate world. She is the enemy of greed. She is the enemy of brainwashing and mind control. She is the enemy of pride and vanity. She is the enemy of the status quo, and She does not shy away from violence.

Take your power back

I feel like I need to say this, because I know some cult survivors (not necessarily from the cult I left) read this blog.

You need to know that the Divine does not support your former abusive guru/s.

A couple years after I left Twin Flames Universe, I found myself being pursued by Mary Magdalene. I was not interested. Apart from being unfamiliar with the Abrahamic paradigm and having an allergic reaction to Yeshua due to being preyed on ("evangelized to") my whole life, I associated Mary Magdalene with abuse because in TFU she was so closely affiliated with Shaleia/Megan (I call her Megan since leaving the cult tbh, so we're gonna go with Megan). I decided Mary Magdalene was a fucking bitch who enabled false priestesses to abuse me and others. And I was just not interested in whatever she had to say to me.

Mary Magdalene would not stop pursuing me. Sending gifts and little blessings into my life, which I angrily ignored. That went on for a while. Eventually, after being guided to listen to a couple of her followers online and meditating with her, I began to receive guidance and help in my life. And she told me that just as I had been the scapegoat of TFU, she had been - and still is - the scapegoat of Christianity.

Turns out she didn't approve of Megan's bullshit at all, and Megan had completely lost her favor. She was livid with Jeff and Megan and I literally did not know this, but apparently Mary Magdalene has some sort of incandescent fury that you can unlock when someone has done fucked up bad enough. And if someone has abused people and had the audacity to separate them from their Twin Flames, sabotaging their sacred love out of greed, they don't get to have Mary Magdalene as a spirit guide anymore. Oh ho ho, oh honey no, you done messed with the wrong ascended master and you do not want to find out what happens now.

Mary Magdalene wasn't at all the lovey lighty perfume-hoarding New Age sugar baby that Megan had made her out to be. She was like a raging female rabbi, a tempest, and a light force capable of subduing every demon in the Qliphoth. 

A rebellious crasher of gates, a paradigm-breaker. There is a reason why they called her "hamartolos" - an outlaw, a sinner.

Communing with her was a surprise and very healing.

She ended up being with me throughout 2023, which also somehow psychically linked me up with the Jewish calendar and Jewish holidays for the whole of that year. I felt like I regained a part of my soul, which Jeff and Megan had tried to take away from me.

And I want people to know that if you have spirit trauma from being in a cult where occult powers were used against you, please know that the spirits that your cult leader claimed to have allied with...might have very different opinions.

The Divine does not support abusers and the Divine loves you too much to abandon you.

Every false priestess and false guru can be toppled from their throne, and in fact MUST fall for both you and them to be freed.

So take your power back. No Divine force can be used against your good heart, because nobody stands between you and God. Nobody.

When I received proof I was right

This is hard to talk about, as I feel the weight of trauma that has come about from this scapegoat curse. I'm also still undergoing a serious Underworld death process and it's hard to find my words or the energy to discuss things. But I have to speak or my voice won't heal.

So I'm going to keep this brief.

I previously described a curse-breaking ritual I did with the Three Fates, also called the Moirai, and Hekate Klothaie (the Spinner of Fate) back in December 2023.

I have also briefly described how I was magically buried alive in an Underworld soul cage. I sensed this for years, but had no confirmation. I saw myself with my lips sown shut, my hands and legs bound, trapped in a mirrored cage.

In December 2023, around the time I did the ritual with Hekate and the Fates, a Tantrik was invited to visit my family home in India, where I grew up. (I didn't find out about this until much later.) He knew, the moment he stepped onto the property, that there was a curse.

He knew where to look and began digging. He found a cast iron doll, a female form, that had been buried deep in the earth by our veranda. Blindfolded, gagged, hands and feet bound.

His intuition gave him some information about who buried it there and for what purpose. My intuition gave me more intel. I have uncovered more and more details of this crime, and how it has affected me, as the months have gone on.

There is more to say, but I am exhausted. The work of fighting my way out of this ancient darkness is a 24/7 thing.

I just had to say this, because as I wrote this post I could feel my throat chakra healing.

Agia

The unity of Twin Flames is the most hallowed ground imaginable. A temple of such purity and sanctity that truly, no other place represents the holiness of Hekate Agia.

When people attack and attempt to separate Twin Flames, or hijack the energy of Twin Flame separation for their karmic love affairs, they are spitting on Hekate Agia and committing the most disgusting sin. 

There are "Hekatean" witches out there who think love is a good binding spell. Who think it's normal to do vile magic involving graveyard dirt from the unmarried dead and needle-pierced chicken hearts, and then use that to bind their "lover" to them.

Hekate Agia cannot ever be known by such witches.

They probably aren't dealing with Hekate at all. They are probably dealing with a low vibrational imposter spirit posing as Hekate, likely in service to a completely false and narcissistic reality.

Just as almost all traditions of witchcraft have protocols for entering sanctified, consecrated land, there is protocol to be respected when facing a Twin Flame connection, which is a living temple. It is quite literally the Holy of Holies.

Twin Flame Love is so sacred that to intrude on it, to energetically rape it for bullshit karmic love affairs, is an unthinkable violation. You are messing with a soul connection that you don't respect or understand, and inviting spirit-enemies into your life that you won't recognize until it's too late. Not to mention that any attempt to destroy Love out of jealousy is being motivated by spirits that uphold an unbalanced power dynamic, which you will become enslaved by eventually. Let me assure you, everyone who profits from Twin Flame separation and attempts to destroy Twin Flame Unions ends up being enslaved by the very forces they wield as weapons.

You need to disconnect from your own humanity to try and kill Twin Flame love. And you will regret it eventually, because this crime opens up a darkness in your soul that you won't know how to deal with. Meanwhile, you've now made new enemies: the spirits who guard the Twins you went after, and the other spirits who guard the Twin Flame temple itself.

You really think you weren't being watched?

Love this powerful knows how to protect itself. The Heart is hallowed ground which only the unwise attempt to trample.

Anyone who sabotages and invades a Twin Flame connection out of jealousy is not ready for the commitment they claim to be looking for. 

Anyone who wishes ill on Twin Flames, the ultimate Lovers, is going up against Hekate Agia and dishonoring Her sanctity as well as their own.

There are consequences for doing this, just as there are consequences for desecrating a temple dedicated to the Gods or disrespecting a burial ground.

Be respectful. Hekate Agia is the Sanctity that knows how to protect itself.

That Cassandra Life

"In 2018, the respectable thing for journalists to do was deny the possibility of authoritarianism in America, but I was never very good at being respectable. 

"It is very bad in America to be right too early. It is considered a sin in journalism to tell the public what you have learned in real time, both because you are going against the tide of profit motive, but mostly because it destroys plausible deniability for the corrupt and powerful.

[...]

"I was growing weary of my own unheeded warnings. I worried about the inability of people in my country to discern between a “conspiracy theory,” in the pejorative sense, and an actual ongoing conspiracy." 

― They Knew: How a Culture of Conspiracy Keeps America Complacent

Story of my fucking life. It's intolerable and consistently makes me feel shut up and insane. I began to go crazy with unspoken truth, and in fact I am still crazy from truths unspoken and grief unfelt, because there needs to be safety to let some grief and truth out and you can't find that safety in a world that violently defends its denial, even when it is on the verge of destruction.

Each time I'm inevitably proven correct, I then spend a lot of time being angry at how I was gaslit and shut up for no reason, and heartbroken for all the horrors that happened which I foresaw clearly and couldn't stop.

And it's still happening. People I love and care about are still too brainwashed and mind-controlled to heed my warnings, and it's soon going to be too late. The Tower has already been struck. People have to get the fuck out before it collapses to dust. I can't save people from their own minds, nobody can. 

Wake the fuck up and take your minds back.

Can you hear the howling of Her hounds?

“When men imagine a female uprising, they imagine a world in which women rule men as men have ruled women.”

― Sally Kempton

Even as I write this, the Queen of Witches is bringing back a lost lineage of female adepts. From many different lines, not just one. Do you see their torches light up in the darkness, one by one, lit by the Primordial Torch? 

Do you hear the hounds baying? 

Do you see Her rising?

Klothaie

Hekate is giving me the go-ahead to talk about this now, so I will. Briefly.

Never, ever stop fighting for your freedom. Even if you've been enslaved for lifetimes as cosmic sin-eater, doomed to forever suffer for others' sins and transmute their karmas, and it looks like there is no way out. No matter how deeply lodged these parasitic soul contracts are, you can break them. It will be utterly terrifying and insane, yes. You will feel sick and disheartened most of the time, yes. But the fate pattern of soul-rape and sin-eating can be broken.

On New Year's Eve 2023, I did a ritual with Hekate Klothaie (the Spinner of Fate) and the Moirai, or the three Fates of Greek mythology. I warded the ritual space with the Eight Bhairavas, a group of directional guardians from the Hindu tradition.

The goal of the ritual was to transcend the scapegoat curse, which has been lodged firmly into this reality.

The Moirai accepted my sacrifices and offerings and began to untangle my threads where they were tangled up with others, and unravel tight, painful knots that looked very heavy. As they did this, I had to keep repeating a litany I had channeled for Hekate Klothaie.

Huge resistance built up as the Moirai worked on changing my fate. I started coughing. I could hear, see and feel people banging on the wall of light that the Bhairavas maintained around me. I saw their faces: spiritual adepts, cousins, ex-friends, old acquaintances, anyone who had ever benefited from my collapsed state.

Screaming for the ritual to stop, that it was illegal and wrong. 

Shouting at me for daring to think I was worth more than being their sin-eater. 

Seriously, fiercely trying to break through the barrier that the Bhairavas kept up. 

If I had not warded my ritual space, I don't know what would have happened. The Bhairavas held firm against the onslaught.

It was distracting, alarming, and made me feel like I was in an armored car while surrounded by an angry mob. The Moirai told me that no matter what I should not stop the litany, especially as I was passing an important threshold - the cross over into the New Year.

I kept going and completed the ritual. There were many auspicious manifestations during and after the ritual, and in the days that followed - clear signs of shifting to a new timeline. There was also a lot of resistance and attempted sabotage.

Since then I have slowly, step by step, continued to escape the fate pattern that I have been trapped in for lifetimes. I'm not out of the woods yet, but so much irrevocable change has happened that I know I'm not going back into that sin-eater cage, even if I don't know much else.

Fight for your life. Fight for your freedom. You can change your fate. You might go through chaos and destruction in the process, and feel like you've failed a thousand times along the way, but you damn well deserve better than to be trapped in an Underworld cage, eating the sins of the people who eat your soul.

Lampadios

I've written before about the heretical light that this false reality tries to convince you is shadow, and tries to force you to "do your shadow work". An inner light that is uncomfortable heresy to this entire universe.

It is in that Light that I began to find my abandoned self. It's the Light that Hekate Lampadios gave me to illuminate my perfection where they saw brokenness. Lampadios is the Light of Love, so it illuminates what is lovable.

With this light, She illuminates your road and your purpose. The fire in the torch or oil lamp of Hekate Lampadios is the disruptive fire that burns away codependency to bring about individuation. That fire is the heat and friction of division so that inner wholeness can finally be honored, distinguished from everyone else. So that you can finally be your own distinct person.

When I look back on over a decade of spiritual seeking, a consistent theme emerges: "Give me proof that I can just be myself and be okay."

Give me the road back to who I was before I had to change myself to please everybody. Before I learned to enmesh with people as a fundamental way of being. Can I trust myself? Do I get to be myself? Does anyone understand what it is that I'm restlessly seeking? Wait, why is initiation changing me into someone they want me to be? Shouldn't initiation change me into more of MYSELF, just without the impurities?

Every time I tried a spiritual practice, a healing modality, a seemingly powerful magical tradition, I thought: "Now I get to be who I really am! Now I can expand and be free!" But the betrayal followed me, and the deities or ascended masters of that spiritual practice turned against me, mimicking the teachers and thought currents of the egregore they were powered by. I ended up hitting this wall of core, cosmic rejection again and again. 

I was consistently drawn to friends and mentors who were transgressive and had experienced being the black sheep. I loved their independent thinking and how they built their lives around their unverified personal gnosis. Even then I had to part ways with them, my fellow heretics, because my innermost soul truth was heretical to them too.

This even happened with my Twin Flame.

The rejection and abandonment wounds run soooo deep that they power the metaphysical building blocks of this entire false reality. An entire universe of fake spiritual laws that only work because they created a structure of sabotage and gaslighting that repeatedly shamed me for doing something to reject myself, abandon myself, betray myself, and hate myself.

And because the world failed me repeatedly, I kept failing myself. Even when I knew that this was my darkest wound, where my gifts and purpose were to be found. So I kept relentlessly seeking her, this rejected part of me...and I kept getting destroyed for trying to love her.

Every attempt to find this abandoned part of my soul was thwarted, sabotaged, humiliated and savagely punished. Each failure to find her re-traumatized me. Made me dissociate a bit further. Buried me alive a bit deeper.

Left me for dead at the crossroads, where the Lamp-bearer found me. 

There is a quiet glow in Her fire. A peaceful crackling sound. Here is the end of being shamed by a narcissistic false god, running a false reality that trapped me and blamed me for it. Broke me and blamed me for it. Colonized my mind, locked up my body, expertly sabotaged every attempt to heal, expertly gaslit every attempt to love myself...and wanted me to feel like a guilty failure for not being able to step onto my authentic life purpose path.

The fire steadily, peacefully crackles on, forever in the torch of Hekate Lampadios. This is the fire burning within that all the sabotage and destruction - falsely labeled "self-sabotage" and "self-destruction" - could not snuff out. Evil never managed to touch it.

Brimo

When I began working with Hekate Brimo, the catharsis was...unbelievable. She put me more deeply in touch with the demonized Divine Feminine consciousness that had been trapped in the Underworld for this whole lifetime and many previous ones. Severed from me, dismembered, and scattered in the abyss.

With the assistance of Hekate Brimo's apocalyptic magic, she began to slowly thaw from her frozen state. Awaken with roars.

Due to what she has been through for centuries and this whole lifetime, due to the severity of her deprivation and repression, her awakening is deeply terrifying for me and heralds the total destruction of my reality.

Have you ever seen the film "Serenity"? She is the vicious, bloodthirsty frenzy of the Reavers after the planet Miranda is infected with the Pax virus, and she is buried under layers of brainwashing in River Tam's mind.

She is Samara, finally crawling out of the television.

She is Hyde, driven to uncontrollable "evil" rage after being split off and suppressed for centuries by Jekyll.

She is Aliveness. Justice. Revolution. She is the lioness roaring back to life inside my womb and ovaries. She is the fury of the Scapegoat.

She is Brimo, and she feels fucking good when I allow myself to get in touch with her. She is deeply liberating and healing.

I will lose literally everyone when she finally awakens in me. Because everyone probably thinks she's Satan, when in fact she is the portal to the God inside me. She is my truest self and she is in direct conflict with the false reality I have been caged in my whole life. She will break everyone's hearts because their world of lies can't withstand her, and it will break my heart to see their hearts break.

But it breaks my heart more to abandon myself.

It's going to suck. I don't care. I finally want her, and the truth, more than I want respectability or trauma bonds. I want freedom more than I want the illusion of social approval and "safety" in the shadows.

Authenticity

The Dark Maiden is a breaker of chains and a crasher of gates. The compassionate liberator who throws off our shackles and returns us to the World Soul, which is Herself. 

As Magna Mater, She affirms the divinity in Matter, in physical form and life. The Union of Spirit and Matter is where Twin Flames come together.

She is the One who keeps the sacred primordial flame of creation, and cannot be accessed by clones or doppelgangers. The Dark Maiden is the Original, untouched by the corruption of artifice, pretense, and the envious imitation of invaders.

That's why the bright blaze of Her dual torches makes us shield our eyes. How can we imagine such sanctity when we've never been taught that our bodies are actual temples? How can we look upon Her, who is pure unconditional love, when we have covered ourselves in masks for centuries?

We must come before Her stripped down bare and trembling with the shame of our humanity in order to know Her tender mercy and grace.