There are times when you reach a vibration that is completely untethered from the collective and the past. And as rocky and painful as it is to get to that place - once you do, there is no going back. All exits are an illusion of separation consciousness.
As an old-timer fan of A Song of Ice and Fire, I've often mentally compared it to the moment when, after landing at Dorne, Nymeria had all of the Rhoynar's 10,000 ships burned, so everyone would understand that there was no going back. This is the kind of spiritual grace that forces you to evolve or die; it's like being stranded on an island and having to work everything out on the spot.
Belief systems die. Labels die. You get unplugged from egregores you didn't know you were plugged into, and you go crazy and wonder if you'll die.
The old paradigm fights back, enraged that you no longer think you deserve to be its sin-eater. Fights to keep you astrally, psychologically, and even physically enslaved. Fights to keep you as its sacrifice, as its tithe to Hell.
Awakening can be a destructive, lonely and shocking process. In order to enter Harmonious Union with God (and, by extension, with your Twin Flame), your entire previous world tends to get destroyed. Viciously. There is fear, shock, and loss as you lose everything that was built on fear-based programming, for a person you no longer are. And there is no going back.
It is a horrible thing to experience. The destructiveness of awakening is utterly horrifying and brings you into close awareness of death. How close you are to death, how you kind of ARE dying and it's not really just a metaphor.
At some point you just keep putting one foot in front of the other blindly, walking into an ego death that you can't see or understand. Knowing that there is no other exit available. Harmonious Twin Flame Union is a place with no back door.
And you can't be in Harmonious Union when you are still tied up in a false fate where you think you have to be sacrificed for the greater good of a vampiric civilization. When you are marked as a scapegoat. When you are astrally attacked by entities that serve vampiric false gurus and vampiric power structures, hissing about "bali" (a Sanskrit term for animal sacrifice) and demanding the payment they were promised - your life force energy in exchange for the soul-rapers' freedom from Hell and illicit abundance.
Empowerment and enlightenment go together. And there are invisible structures in place to prevent humanity from waking up from the hypnotic slumber of slavery. I have been hunted, stalked, thwarted, and attacked as I leave the scapegoat vibration. Like something wants to devour me before I escape the trap and reach God's arms.
I see a very "love and light" approach to Twin Flame Union, and in particular Harmonious Union. This is a false light paradigm based on spiritual perfectionism, spiritual bypassing, and toxic positivity. Harmonious Union is not about following a dogma of emotional management and reaching a "high vibe". It's not about getting into a state of angelic peace. There are plenty of false light "Harmonious Unions" out there faking their way through life right now. They might look peaceful, but they aren't even with their real Twin Flames, let alone in Harmonious Twin Flame Union with them.
The positivity-and-gratitude doctrine of "healing" and ascension just has no grounding in reality, and it's not the only way things work.
When you wake up to unity with God and unity with your Twin Flame in the Underworld, it doesn't follow the spiritual rules of the nondual or lightworker paradigms. It is a different experience of unity. A different experience of Now-ness. A messy, messy, low vibrational death-and-birth while demons crawl over you like insects.
I don't belong to the love and light paradigm. I don't manifest from a place of sparkling unicorn gratitude.
The Now exists everywhere, in Heaven and in Hell. You can wake up to it in Hell. You can wake up to it in the dirt. Like Ereshkigal, the death goddess who gives birth.
It's scary. But when you're doing it for the right reasons - to LOVE YOURSELF because you know nothing else is worth it - that's when you'll find the courage to walk through this storm. No back door will be worth it, because you'll know it for the illusion that it is.