Hekate is giving me the go-ahead to talk about this now, so I will. Briefly.
Never, ever stop fighting for your freedom. Even if you've been enslaved for lifetimes as cosmic sin-eater, doomed to forever suffer for others' sins and transmute their karmas, and it looks like there is no way out. No matter how deeply lodged these parasitic soul contracts are, you can break them. It will be utterly terrifying and insane, yes. You will feel sick and disheartened most of the time, yes. But the fate pattern of soul-rape and sin-eating can be broken.
On New Year's Eve 2023, I did a ritual with Hekate Klothaie (the Spinner of Fate) and the Moirai, or the three Fates of Greek mythology. I warded the ritual space with the Eight Bhairavas, a group of directional guardians from the Hindu tradition.
The goal of the ritual was to transcend the scapegoat curse, which has been lodged firmly into this reality.
The Moirai accepted my sacrifices and offerings and began to untangle my threads where they were tangled up with others, and unravel tight, painful knots that looked very heavy. As they did this, I had to keep repeating a litany I had channeled for Hekate Klothaie.
Huge resistance built up as the Moirai worked on changing my fate. I started coughing. I could hear, see and feel people banging on the wall of light that the Bhairavas maintained around me. I saw their faces: spiritual adepts, cousins, ex-friends, old acquaintances, anyone who had ever benefited from my collapsed state.
Screaming for the ritual to stop, that it was illegal and wrong.
Shouting at me for daring to think I was worth more than being their sin-eater.
Seriously, fiercely trying to break through the barrier that the Bhairavas kept up.
If I had not warded my ritual space, I don't know what would have happened. The Bhairavas held firm against the onslaught.
It was distracting, alarming, and made me feel like I was in an armored car while surrounded by an angry mob. The Moirai told me that no matter what I should not stop the litany, especially as I was passing an important threshold - the cross over into the New Year.
I kept going and completed the ritual. There were many auspicious manifestations during and after the ritual, and in the days that followed - clear signs of shifting to a new timeline. There was also a lot of resistance and attempted sabotage.
Since then I have slowly, step by step, continued to escape the fate pattern that I have been trapped in for lifetimes. I'm not out of the woods yet, but so much irrevocable change has happened that I know I'm not going back into that sin-eater cage, even if I don't know much else.
Fight for your life. Fight for your freedom. You can change your fate. You might go through chaos and destruction in the process, and feel like you've failed a thousand times along the way, but you damn well deserve better than to be trapped in an Underworld cage, eating the sins of the people who eat your soul.