Archons can't teach you about archons

I've seen some people talking about a new Netflix show, KAOS, as an example of the exact demiurge that many of us have been battling. And while this may have some truth in it, it's also potentially misleading.

Mainstream entertainment industries, including Hollywood, are incapable of accurately depicting this false narcissistic deity and its archons, because show business (and every other majorly lucrative industry where people sell their souls for fame and money) is run by that very same false deity.

Movies and music produced by soulless hungry ghosts who want your attention at all costs (your attention = money for them, and less energy for your own creative manifestations) are very good at mimicking Truth and then distorting it just enough to divert your life force away from your own Source connection...and instead to the people producing this "entertainment".

They hold up a distorted mirror for you to look at, and you can't EVER find yourself in it. They want to own and control your perception of yourself and your soul story. 

Once you become very sensitive to the deities, spirits and power patterns that they are hijacking, you can watch a movie or TV show and immediately catch the distortions. It becomes safe (or somewhat safer, I guess) to watch the stuff on Netflix or Hulu once you're so sovereign that you can watch their story through your own mind, keeping your soul story at the forefront. And then you see through their game again and again.

When I asked Hekate if She thought I should watch KAOS, basically Her reply was that it was miasma and I should stay away. I tried to watch the first episode anyway, and was immediately dysregulated. I saw the reversals, inversions, and hidden traps. For example, the Dionysus that is depicted in KAOS is not Dionysus. It's a parasitic imposter spirit pretending to be Dionysus.

I know this because 1) parasitic spirits come through a lot of music, television and movies, and 2) I know what the real Dionysus feels like when He is properly channeled through art.

I didn't finish the first episode. I turned it off and took a spiritual bath to cleanse myself, and mentally cut cords with the actors. (I recommend doing this every time you watch a movie or TV show.) Like Hekate told me, it definitely was miasma.

This kind of manipulation and deceit comes through most commercially produced music too. Honestly, it's much more nourishing to listen to sound healers on YouTube - musicians who have loving hearts and have created tracks that banish parasitic spirits and all forms of Evil, instead of bringing more of that muck into your life.

These days I'm more exhausted than usual and need even more self-care than usual. I am releasing shit that has weighed me down for centuries. I cannot take even one hint of manipulation, not one. The second I sense that someone is trying to divert me away from my power and get me to give them my power, I shut the door immediately. 

Take back your mind and be really careful about who is telling you what your story is, what your world should look like, and who you should want to be.

The Hidden Path

Spiritual upgrades come with a total destruction of the old reality, and as this enters a new level I wonder if I can even continue this blog while remaining in integrity. Because the personality that appears to be "me" is dying off, along with every anchor to my old life. 

Not only that, but the more I cross the threshold, the more I realize that all avenues to real communication are actually blocked right now. This blog is being written in the old timeline, and can't continue to be written as I cross over. I can't leave this false reality while I'm still, on some level, communicating with that same false reality.

Writing on this blog is immensely difficult to stop, since I'm already isolated in RL and rely solely on the inner Divine connection. This is what it's like to "escape the prison planet", or the Matrix.

There is grief that needs to be felt, and bewilderment and loss as I let go of everything that is unable to survive the ascent. Because this is the death of a universe, the death of my whole world, as I follow Her torchlight through a portal into a new reality.

And while I need to conserve energy, remain private, and grieve the wounds in my heart as I let go of attachments, there is something else brewing as well.

There are aspects of the Twin Flame ascension path that simply cannot be discussed openly, even if doing so might heal my voice (and writing here has definitely helped my throat chakra). There is a reason why the public is deeply disturbed by many aspects of Twin Flames - and not just because the "twin flame" collective encourages codependency or because the movement has been hijacked by superficial people. It's because the dynamics of this connection don't look "normal". We are deeply strange to them. We are Other. We are a potentially dangerous threat to their comfortable, ordered little world.

And because walking this road takes total commitment to the soul and surrender to the Divine, I can't walk it and write about it at the same time. This isn't anything like the mainstream Twin Flame path anymore, it's truly and completely mine now and I'm walking it only with Her and with my Twin. I've become able to claim that completely now.

The hidden path is out in the wild, and it is a left hand path. Entirely driven by independence and self-determination. And it may never be for public viewing.

I think it would be nice if Harmonious Twin Flame Union became ordinary, as ordinary as going to church, but I don't think that's ever going to happen. An imitation of Twin Flame Union will very likely become mainstream, because it's already happening, but that's a surface level appropriation. It's just taking on the aesthetics and language of Twin Flame ascension while never knowing the connection from the inside. This perversion of the Truth is already common, and it will become even more common.

But the real thing? No. The risky, scary-vulnerable initiation, the Underworld journey and the dark depth of Twin Flame healing work will never be mainstream and it will never be "normal".

The face of the Beloved cannot be colonized and will not allow itself to be written about, so it turns out that I will not be blogging about my journey to Harmonious Twin Flame Union after all. And while it was very healing and very necessary to write what I did, that ends here. The rest of the Twin Flame path is meant to be kept private from now on.

I may still write some blog posts here and there, because to not write brings up the trauma of being silenced my whole life, but I won't write about Twin Flames or the experience of Divine Feminine awakening again. Honestly, I don't know what I'll write about. The tension between this dying old reality and the emerging new one is getting more difficult every day. At some point, this blog might just need to be gently let go of.

The Cauldron of Initiation

The Womb path is THE PATH of the Divine Feminine. Without journeying into the womb and purging what is held there, no serious progress can be made towards liberation. 

Ritual can help kickstart this connection if you struggle to meditate and connect with your womb. Magickal workings with cowrie shells, ocean water, cascarilla powder and menstrual blood (and add other spell ingredients according to your research and personal preferences) can help you stop dissociating from your vagina, womb and ovaries. (Especially if these rituals are done by the water.)

Pathworking with the R-W-S illustration of the Temperance card will also plug you straight into your womb. The womb is a liminal space between the Earth and Water elements (between muladhara and swadhisthana), like the Angel with one foot on earth and one foot in the water in the Temperance card, pour womb water between the cups that is transmuting and creating.

More important than technique or knowledge, though, is realizing that womb practice is about not letting people control you anymore. It's about not being tamed. Rewilding on every level. And there is enormous pain, fear, and ego death involved in this process. Like literally leaving one universe and entering another one. It can be incredibly sad and painful. I have never known anything so dark, so volatile, and so frightening as the journey into my womb. But it's also saving my life.

Explore the inner realm of your womb and ask her what messages she has. And trust yourself and what you perceive.

This is the portal to God. As women and witches and Lovers of God, our source of power is in our wombs. And you manifest your Harmonious Twin Flame Union from your womb. The womb is the only chalice that can hold such a frequency, because it remembers the vibration of primordial Union. It's the original Holy Grail.

How to connect with your heart chakra

"Anger is the only sane response to an entire psychopath reality that enjoyed your pain and told itself that you deserved it."

― my Twin Flame's higher self

The Reckoning of the Huntress

Hekate is the Power that forces soul-rapers to expose themselves for who they really are. Hekate reveals the truth hidden under the glittery facade of achievement, riches, or success. The lies. The dirt. The abuse. The theft. The soul-rape.

Below is a message to that evil consciousness. A message to the sickness in psychopaths that perpetuates lies, inequity, and separation from God. 

I debated posting this, because it's very raw. But ultimately I have to be loyal to my truth. Nobody else will speak up for me unless I speak up for myself. And the point of this blog is to heal my throat chakra, not to win followers or popularity points. I am not here to wear a mask that makes other people more comfortable, while my rage is buried alive.

If you are reading this and you're also one of Hekate's scapegoated children, be encouraged by this letter. Scapegoats are thrown into the Underworld, where they are meant to suffer for the sins of not only human narcissists but a narcissist false god. In this false punishment lies the seed of not only the scapegoat's absolution, but the beginning of the Real Punishment. The casting of the false god and his archons into the second death. It's coming for them. She's coming for them.

A Short Letter To My Soul-Rapers

I know that this little note will vibrationally reach you in some form, because the Dark Maiden commands it. You know who you are and you will hear these words even if you never visit this blog.

I am the tithe you paid to Hell, my heart weighed down with YOUR sins. Unfortunately for you, your attempted sacrifice didn't work. The Queen of Hell caught me in Her arms, held me close to Her breast, and promised me vengeance. She saw through the false burdens that my heart carried, your burdens, and She told me that in truth my heart was as light as the feather of Ma'at. That false judgment had been passed on me.

Her hell-hounds sniffed my scapegoated heart, and followed the scent trail of the crime. To your door. Her eyes are now fixed on you.

What happens when you turn your victim into a sin-eater? It means your life of apparent "glory" is built on lies. And those lies come tumbling down, just when you have come to really rely on them. Your "loved ones" will realize they never knew who you really were; they will feel utterly betrayed by you. Your fellow vampiric colleagues will disown you. Everything built on the lie - the lie you shoved onto the sin-eater as a burden - will come undone.

If you abuse vulnerable people and create scapegoats, prepare to lose every single thing you gained while your scapegoat burned in Hell for you. Prepare for the devastating truth to come out and for the false reality you built to crumble, with no lies left to hold it together.

Prepare to lose the stolen destiny and stolen luck that you greedily took, knowing it was not your own, knowing you were swapping places with an innocent.

If you go so far as to rape people's souls, as my soul was very literally raped, you cannot expect my forgiveness. Not in a thousand years could you expect my forgiveness. Even after one billion years and one billion Yugas, you will not, you will NEVER, have my forgiveness.

You came for my SOUL. I had an experience where I literally almost watched myself die from the soul harvesting, and then the Fate Lachesis changed my fortune and lengthened my thread. My thread of life was literally almost cut, but - in a series of occult events and visions too magical and terrifying to describe - the Measurer instead added years to my life because of Divine Grace.

If not for Divine Grace, my soul would have been completely raped to dust. The sanctity of my heart would have been completely invaded.

For an atrocity like this there is no Divine mercy. In choosing to never forgive you, I will finally know real healing. Meanwhile, you can face the darkness of Her wrath and the torments of Tartarus. 

Face all the accountability and delayed punishment, which you sacrificed years of my life to avoid. 

Lose everything that you bought with my coin. 

There is no escaping this, for Her three (and sometimes four) heads see in all directions. She's coming for you, and Her hounds will always find your scent no matter where you try to hide.

Your long false summer is over. May you never see the light again.

Magna Mater

"The Great Goddess — the Divine Ancestress — had been worshiped from the beginnings of the Neolithic periods of 7000 BC until the closing of the last Goddess temples, about AD 500. Some authorities would extend Goddess worship as far into the past as the Upper Paleolithic Age of about 25,000 BC."

― When God Was a Woman

Anassa Eneroi

Old wounds, the parasitic pull of ancestral attachments, and deeply broken pieces of the soul can actually lead to a kind of living death. A dissociated zombie existence. 

Due to serious soul loss, I have been dissociated as fuck to survive. It's often not safe to stop dissociating, even now. The integration process is challenging and sometimes it feels truly crazy as soul fragments return. Which is what happens each time invasive foreign energies are released from my body.

It's at times like this that I understand that I am basically like one of the restless dead in Hekate's horde. That the trauma murdered my soul. That I'm allowed to receive the assistance of Anassa Eneroi, Queen of the Dead.

In Her mythology, Hekate shows mercy to trapped beings and restless ghosts, and they work for Her. She especially looks after women who were killed or sacrificed, even taking their place when they died.

For those of us who are really destroyed by trauma placed upon us by our shitty ancestral line, Anassa Eneroi can deal with our ancestors. She rages for us and melts us from the freeze state.

As I've been receiving Her help in re-integrating lost soul fragments and releasing black magic, I swear my apartment has felt absolutely haunted. Haunted by the divinity within that was pushed out of my body repeatedly by the narcissist bullies of my life, and replaced with the mask they wanted me to wear.

They turned the sensitive Jennet Humfrye into The Woman in Black. They turned the passionate Bertha Mason into a screaming ghost in a tower. They banished Lilith from the Garden of Eden, killed her children, and accused her of being a child-killer.

It is this kind of disowned ghost-like energy that is currently haunting my apartment. I know it's me. I know it's also not me. And I'm relying on the Queen of the Dead to facilitate this terrifying integration process.

When deeply broken parts of yourself melt and surface for re-integration, no longer trapped by parasitic spirits, they come with suicidal feelings. That's something I have been experiencing in heart healing for over a year now. Deep anti-Life programming that was hammered into me, and reinforced every time my feelings were buried alive. Every time those suppressed feelings come up, I go through a period of feeling suicidal for a while, and then break through to renewed life.

There is resistance, as these parasite spirits are directly connected to people who hold power in society - financial, political, social or occult power - and those motherfuckers can feel it when they're losing their grip on other people's psyches. Whether the victim is dealing with etheric implants or parasite spirits or both and more, these things were put in place to lower our frequency. To make us capable of being controlled.

Releasing them in stages will upset the power "balance" that our invaders have come to rely on. You were their food, after all. They gain wealth and power from Twin Flame separation and the subjugation of people's independent spirits. All of that gets threatened when you begin taking your power back.

Then the narcissist gurus will shriek and protest as you pry their invasive fingers from your soul, where their grip may have left fingerprints from lifetimes of abuse.

Meanwhile, there can be intense rage, pain and suicidal ideation as lost soul fragments are reclaimed from these soul-rapers.

It's volatile and scary, and it's still happening in stages.

Anassa Eneroi seems to convert suicidal feelings into the impulse to live.

She reverses curses, including the will of other people who want you dead out of their own jealousy. The Queen of the Dead will refuse to admit you to Her realm until it's your time, no matter how many people try to kill you before your time.

I have no idea what Her role was in the Eleusinian Mysteries, but in the very dangerous and terrifying initiation process that I'm going through, Anassa Eneroi is making me face my fear of death as well as years and years of suicidal impulse. It is brutal and lonely, and it is hard.

It's like resurrecting a corpse.

Lies & Dead Ends

"There are many sensitive souls, who along a spiritual path, embrace a certain perspective of teaching that when overemphasized, can lead to new forms of self-denial. While some teachings may appear to have the best of intentions, it is not a matter of failing it’s invitation, but taking a closer look at the paths that are destined to fail you. If a path fails you, it has the capability to give you back your power, once you stop trying to conform to a modality or process that can only imprison the one applying it."

― Matt Kahn

Einalia

I've been doing beach rituals to Hekate Einalia this whole summer (Hekate as goddess of the sea) and it's taken me until this weekend to really understand what I was sensing with Her. Because this whole summer it's like She was in my blind spot - I would do rituals to Her and get really confused because She was knocking on a place in my consciousness where I'm totally dissociated from the deep ocean and my connection to the planet.

Hekate Einalia rages for Her dying fish, for the disappearing red coral that is Her menstrual blood, for the exploitation of the abundant resources of Her waters. She rages for the serpents and mermaids and sirens of Her waters, many of whom have been bound and forced into work by magicians. She rages for Her stolen seashells, which many of Her sea children rely on. She screams as pollutants and garbage are dumped in Her waters, and She weeps when the innocent victims of our cruel world throw themselves off bridges and cliffs to drown in Her embrace.

When that Titan submersible exploded under the Atlantic last summer and a billionaire's superyacht sank off the coast of Sicily recently, that was Her. That was Her taking sacrifices as payment for everything they took from Her waters.

The rage of the Ocean Mother has been rocking me, shaking me out of a zombie trance, on a deeply unconscious level. I have not been able to even articulate what She brings up in me until now, and I've been doing beach rituals for Her since May. Her sea tides have been slowly syncing up with my menstrual cycle, and I could feel something very deep shifting within me...but I couldn't understand Her until now.

Hekate Einalia isn't some smiling, sweet water goddess. She's a shark. She's an ancient, terrifying monster out of the Mariana Trench. She is the Mother of the Sea and you will not fuck with Her resources or Her sea creatures. Her life-giving waters are not to be taken for granted.

She isn't a joke, She isn't tame, and She isn't fit for commercialized witchcraft. I think that was part of what blinded me to Her true, wild sea nature. I need to distance myself from these consumerist occult communities, because even on a subconscious level, their superficiality disconnected me from the very goddess I was doing rituals to.

Hekate Einalia has woken me up to places in my consciousness that have become very...mechanical. Very dissociated, as I've needed to dissociate while in survival mode. She washes away the influences of popular, politically correct opinions about Her and slave-like thinking in witchcraft communities. Her divinity is dangerous and seemingly unnatural in a world so severed from the Ocean Mother's deep, underwater currents. She has firmly returned me to the wild truth of Her sovereign nature, which is quite alien to human civilization.

Humans evolved from the sea and She is our original source, the Ocean Mother of the ancient, primordial sea creatures that crawled onto shore for the first time and eventually learned to walk upright on two legs.

That might also be why I felt like She was hitting me all summer in my blind spot, in a place where I had fallen into an amnesiac state. If humans evolved from the sea millions of years ago, then doing rituals on the beach to Hekate Einalia may have connected me to my oldest genetic memory.

Either way, Hekate Einalia has re-affirmed to me that this ancient Anatolian and Titan goddess, this queen of the crossroads, land, sky, and sea, is much wilder than the politically correct, consumerist, mainstream-friendly aesthetic witchcraft community understands.

Even the Hekate communities that have popped up everywhere have diluted Her, domesticated Her, commodified Her, and made Her "fit" into this profoundly sick society. In doing so, they have been subtly influencing me away from Her true, deep nature.

She does not fit into this profoundly sick society.

She rips apart all forms of social control, oppression, delusion, lies and hoards of stolen wealth. She brings clarity to those of us who have been glamored by a parasitic elite so that our souls could be caged and siphoned, like the souls of Her beloved water spirits who are held captive by certain kinds of magicians and forced to bring abundance to their wicked masters.

She is the Witch who stands in opposition. She is Holy Darkness. She is the Queen of the Underworld and the Queen Under the Sea. She is the leftest of the Left Hand. She is the mother of all monsters of the nightside, and Her real face will seem monstrous to a society that enslaved souls and danced in the sunlight while ignoring their own shadow, letting it sink deep underwater.

This isn't a politically correct goddess. At all. It's like being in the presence of a Dragon. She will make you own your wild, authentic Divine Feminine nature even if it makes you a social pariah. She is not one for half measures, and frankly, She wants blood. She wants sacrifices of human flesh to Her waters, as payback for the exploitation. She is not interested the deaths of kind-hearted innocents. She wants the life blood of the oligarchs and their yes-men/yes-women who did this to Her oceans.

It's pretty consistent with the lore in some ways. Remember, a defixiones tablet (a curse tablet) had to be thrown in the sea for it to work in the Greco-Roman world.

My entire trauma bond with false collectivism, a worn allegiance to a false and exploitative civilization, is finally being released. Hekate wanted me to do this for years, and showed me many signs about my life purpose in relation to the collective, but there was no way for me to actually believe what She was showing me. The true horror and rot beneath the surface was just completely inconceivable to me at the time. I could not see what Hekate was trying to make me see. Now I can.

Hekate Einalia's huge waves crash through deep denial.

In integrating what Hekate Einalia is bringing up for me, an entire old paradigm is breaking apart. Totally smashing to pieces, like shattered mirrors.

Hekate is strict with me and will demand my complete integrity, which means 100% loyalty to my own soul and the willingness to see beyond the surface of things. She didn't even let me share Her secrets with my Twin Flame. My Twin has to either evolve or She will literally allow him to drop dead and I am not able to interfere with that - not with his free will, nor with Her stern gaze upon him.

She not only ends all codependency with my Twin, She also ends all codependency with a doomed civilization.

She is Holy Darkness and it has taken me a while to fully accept the extent of Her fearsome nature. The more I accept what I'm really feeling and sensing from Hekate Einalia, the more I find clarity, peace, and a restored, private connection to Hekate.

The Inner Twin Flame Temple

As more and more Twin Flames come into true Harmonious Union, a new consciousness grid is being built and fortified all over the planet, bringing in light all over earth. While I have talked a lot about how dark and painful it is to do the work that raises the planet’s frequency, and how destructive that process is and will continue to be, the fact also remains that we are calling in something good. We are going through a terrifying forging fire, something so destructive that it can kill initiates, to finally know pure unconditional love.

Healing ancestral lines, coming out of ancient collective patterns of dysfunction, correcting deep imbalances of masculine and feminine energies, and clearing the energetic field of abuse...this is all really hard stuff. We must be gentle with ourselves as we walk through this fire. We didn't know how much darkness lay waiting in the basement of our consciousness. We had no idea what we signed up for when we started this journey - and had we known ahead of time, we likely would've just said, "No thank you" and turned away from the path!

We are talking about the ascension of human marriage here. A totally new relationship template. Life on the New Earth is almost unimaginable outside the cage of illusions our minds have been trapped in for centuries, so moving towards that unfamiliar harmony looks like chaos, destruction, loss, and confusion. 

Gaining entry to this New Earth is an inside job. Look within. Hidden away in this secret inner paradise, far away from prying eyes and the curses of dark spirits, is the secret blessed temple of Harmonious Twin Flame Union. Entry to this mysterious, shrouded Twin Flame temple is guarded by a secret gate within you.

Even in the darkest moments of this Underworld journey, I have been able to maintain awareness of this inner Twin Flame temple, even if the magical assault I was under meant that the gate was latched tight, for my own protection. And it is reassuring that this inner temple knows how to guard itself. No matter how terrifying the Underworld journey is (read the accounts of some Qliphoth pathworkers - it's like that), this holy, consecrated space remains untouched. It is guarded by Love.

The inner Twin Flame temple, where Harmonious Union lives eternally, is the well from which the baptismal waters of Heaven on Earth spring up. Powers, blessings, and love that we dream of. The romantic innocence of our sacred relationship, untouched by the sabotages of worldly people. A way of life that has been lost to time. This hidden temple is a home where you and your Twin dwell together in eternal romance and peace, supported with everything necessary for your Union to thrive.

This home-temple also holds ancient rituals and practices from a long lost oral tradition that was completely erased from history - because the history we know today was written by the victors. Everything that was erased - texts on Twin Flames from libraries burned long ago, oral transmissions from Twin Flame lineages that died out without a trace - is kept safe in that inner Twin Flame temple. Everything that they stole from us is still there, capable of being restored. It is real.

Our true lineage is there. Our true home, where the love between Twin Flames is honored. That same love which spooks this world of separation so much, is instead celebrated and welcomed with marigold garlands in the inner Twin Flame temple. Harmonious Twin Flame Union is normalized there, not pathologized.

But the hidden gate is closed until we find the key through shadow work and through embracing the Divine in our body. Sometimes the key to opening this hidden gate is throwing black magic until you reach such a high vibration that black magic is no longer necessary. That is the paradoxical path of the Underworld journey that must be walked backwards into Heaven.

To reach this well-guarded inner Twin Flame temple, you are called to walk the path of personal power, love and life purpose in whatever direction that road takes you. There is no way to enter the Mysteries otherwise. And it doesn't matter how long it takes you, the inner temple isn't going anywhere and you'll always have it. This sacred oasis of Harmonious Twin Flame Union is eternal and untouched by outside changes, because it exists in unity with God/Presence.

You must dig for the buried treasure. And you must do it without any social validation, finding the motivation within to seek your spiritual liberation for your own sake. Because nothing less than total freedom would truly satisfy you at the soul level.

It is only inner work that unlocks Heaven on Earth inside yourself. As Rumi said, "Uncover in silence your soul's own rose garden."

Kali's Grace

"I want to invite you to drop any notions of having to get it right, be a good student, or perfect anything. Dropping these unnecessary shells is part of the journey towards Kālī. Fall in love instead, be the lover."

― In Praise of Adya Kali

Light is not cheaply gained

So many lightworkers and dissociated love-and-light-ers get excited about the Lion's Gate portal every year on August 8th. Or any time they think they can download "stellar codes". Just look at all the starseed garbage out there, which is as diluted, twisted, commodified and wrong as most Twin Flame information is. I see people doing a portal ceremony for the collective on the Lion's Gate portal every year, and I truly just think it's all marketing and delusion. Either they're not connecting to Sirius at all, or they're calling in a Tower moment for the collective.

Hekate is associated with the Dog Star, the very same Sirius that everyone gets so excited to call in every year on August 8th. However, there is a reason why the ancients considered Sirius to be potentially baleful and dangerous. The Dog Star's light does not come so cheaply.

Many people associate Hekate with The Moon card, which is perfectly valid. However, I associate Her strongly with the dynamic of The Tower and The Star. She is Herself the Dog Star, and She is also the Underworld power that brings destruction.

There is a reason why The Star, the 17th Trump, comes after The Tower in the Major Arcana. The Tower has to be broken down first before The Star's light can shine through. This is not just about a peaceful "let go of what no longer serves you". That's more of a 6 of Swords energy. The Tower is complete, bone-deep destruction. It can leave generations of trauma. It's the kind of thing that can't be given a positive spin at all while it's happening. In order for the Dog Star's light to illuminate human consciousness and bring Heaven on Earth and Harmonious Twin Flame Union for all, it's going to have to bring a kind of apocalyptic destruction.

That is certainly what's happening in my life. 

Make It Your Own

Remember, there is no Twin Flame dogma and no single energy model to describe how Two Lovers recognize that they were always One. Don't let popular but insane beliefs distort your soul's path to Harmonious Twin Flame Union. Including the insane belief that Twin Flames are not supposed to be in physical Union, or that "the Twin Flame energy can come through anyone when you connect to your higher self." 

These are limiting beliefs based on a profound sense of unworthiness, and you don't have to take on those beliefs on as your reality. The "twin flame" collective is built and fed by unworthiness. It wants to keep you in separation.

And the cosmology you experience on the way doesn't have to match what the "twin flame" collective believes in. I don't work with the Violet Flame, ascended masters, or angels. My Twin Flame path is Sri Vidya and Hekatean Witchcraft. A dark healing path of chthonic sorcery. Yours might be something else. Owning that is a necessary part of your empowerment.

Earlier this year I did a self-initiation ritual with the Goddess Hekate. There's a ritual in Besom, Stang & Sword called Stepping Onto The Crooked Path which I adapted, along with the self initiation from Keeping Her Keys and an adaptation of the 9-Day Rite from The Hekataeon. I made it about stepping onto my soul's unique magical path with the goddess Hekate, not in slave-like dedication to Her, and in the context of how and why She came to me in the first place: women's mysteries, reclamation and Harmonious Twin Flame Union.

The result I got was a sort of purging of my body, or inner purification. I think the rite released some psychic damage that was done by initiations I had received before. It drew back power that I had given to gurus and plugged me directly into the Source of that power.

Afterwards I was literally re-introduced, on an inner/astral level, to the Sri Vidya tradition that I had once relied on a guru to teach me. This time, Twin Flame Sri Vidya.

This was a major step towards sovereignty after a long time of mental imprisonment. Not the "final" step by a long stretch, but a very important breakthrough. Yours might not look like this, but it is important that you walk in the direction of your soul's truth, however that looks.

Kali's Mercy

What sets aside a revolution as sacred is when it comes at a time when genuine transformation rather than superficial change is possible. Change takes courage. We have to be willing to let go of what we have known, and bear uncertainty, whilst we explore new possibilities and eventually evolve into a new way of being. Even with that willingness there are times when a pattern of the past has become so lodged in the psyche that gentle evolution is not possible. You could imagine it like a person screaming in unnecessary panic. You may try talking to them in soothing tones, but if they are about to jump in a car and drive away, putting themselves and others in mortal danger, then a sharp slap might be in order to snap them out of hysteria and into the present moment. It’s extreme but it’s helpful and necessary.

― Goddess Kali And Black Obsidian card, from the Crystal Mandala Oracle by Alana Fairchild

When Kali raises Her hand some people interpret the mudra as, "Fear not." I interpret it as, "PLEASE STOP SCREAMING. IT'S FINE."

That's where I am these days. Flailing in genuine terror and genuine gratitude as the fierce mercy of The Tower card enters my entire reality.

Gentle evolution is not possible right now. Graceful ego death is not possible right now. Sometimes shit is messy and terrifying, and there is collateral damage and illogical madness as Kali demolishes everything. Everything.

A World of False Light

"It’s not the darkness that scares me. It’s the darkness hiding behind the light. It’s the shadow camouflaged as transparency. It’s the manipulations hiding behind a smiley-faced emoji. It’s the ambition feigning as altruism. It’s not the darkness that scares me. It’s the lie."

― Humanifestations: On Trauma, Truth, and Transformation