As a follow up to this post, I want to light a virtual candle of remembrance to each person I know who faced this terror that I am facing, and was destroyed by it.
Grief came over me like a wave when I finished that last post, because I am walking a path strewn with the corpses of friends and strangers who went before me. I can't take one step forward without tripping over the corpses of the disillusioned, the broken, and the dead. All of whom were people I loved.
Those who made it out alive lost their minds, their faith, and their hope.
Some people I know made it out unmasked and sane, though, and they give me hope. They survived the vicious ego death, and rose humbled and redeemed. May I also be given that grace.
But these virtual candles are for the ones who were not so lucky. I have also included candles for my friends and for myself, because we are walking through this ordeal right now.
With this post I light a virtual candle to Hekate, She who gathers up lost souls, for my first mentor and spiritual friend, a shaman who was completely destroyed by this exact path into the Underworld unmasking. I weep for him and everything he went through, and the breadcrumb trail he left me to find my way to freedom.
Next I light a virtual candle to Hekate for my friend who, while the Goddess was awakening within her in the Underworld, became utterly possessed by the virus-like multiplying, assimilating inner false mask, and now teeters on the brink of death. I mourn her great love for her Twin Flame, who she is too lost to recognize anymore. I weep for the Goddess awakening within her.
I light a virtual candle to Hekate for a friend and mentor of mine, a priestess of Odin and seidhkona, who was broken on Odin's spear. She was being unmasked too, and it spiraled into an unmanageable horror that nearly took her life several times. She tracked all the same black magic phenomena that I have, and her path of descent had all the markers that mine has.
I light a virtual candle to Hekate for a kindly devotee of Poseidon who was utterly brutalized by this process. Whose gentle heart was not made for this ugly world, or for the ugly ego death that the Underworld demands.
I light a virtual candle to Hekate for four devoted Lokeans I know who were betrayed and abused by Loki, dragged into the abyss, and left crazed and broken.
I light virtual candles to Hekate for acquaintances who got gaslit, dogpiled, and attacked when they asked for help while going through this. Who became crazed by the psychic control they were kept under. Some of them took their own lives.
I especially light virtual candles to Hekate for my friends from Twin Flames Universe who were brainwashed by TFU's "coaches" and by Jeff and Megan into changing their genders and sexual orientations. Who were coerced into cutting off their precious breasts and taking hormones that altered their voices and made them grow beards. May Hekate's bright torches guide them out of the Underworld. Don't let this destroy them more than it already has. Guide them to truth and healing, and avenge them fiercely.
I light virtual candles to Hekate for a number of dear warrior friends - and our respective Twin Flames - who are being dragged into ego death alongside me right now. May we not succumb to the grip of these false masks. May we not lose sight of Hekate's flickering torches in the darkness. May we all be reborn into the Light together.
Anassa Eneroi, have mercy on the dead and the broken.
Soteira, be the savioress of those who are abandoned by their Gods.
Phosphoros, whatever happens, don't let the light go out.
Mother, Mother, Mother, may You never lose sight of us, Your lost children.