I'll share one more thing before I retreat back into my cave.
I know that at least one (maybe more) Pakistani ex-Muslim has been quietly visiting this blog and thinking about reverting to the ancestral religion.
Take my advice: don't do this through programs like ISKCON or Arya Samaj. And other organizations' ghar wapsi ceremonies vary in quality depending on who is conducting them.
If you are a Pakistani ex-Muslim, there's literally only one way you need to do this: tarpanam.
Look up online how to do a tarpanam ritual for your ancestors and do it regularly to heal your lineage. It doesn't matter if you feel self-conscious or if you think you don't know how to do it "correctly", just do it sincerely.
This is your way to cleanse and retrieve your lost, family-specific Hinduism, and to reconnect with your last generation of Hindu ancestors before you were broken away from the Dharma.
While there is much to criticize about caste (and I've written about those very real problems both here and on Reddit), the other side of what happens beyond the caste distortion is deep connection to the ancestors, your life purpose, and your mental stability.
Pray to your ancestors. Make the offerings at the new moon. Talk to them.
Pray to Yama, and don't be afraid just because He is Death. He is also called the King of Righteousness and the Lord of the Ancestors. It is completely safe to pray to Yama.
Trust me. I live in the Underworld. This blog is written from inside the Underworld (yes, literally).
If you are a Pakistani ex-Muslim trying to return home, then you are starting out as a survivor of the Hindu genocide. Genocides might destroy civilizations, but what was lost can be recovered through the Underworld.
Because your original spirituality died, only Yama can find what was murdered and lost in the Underworld. Because your ancestral connection was severed, only the Lord of the Ancestors can restore that dead connection.
And the ancestors will begin invisibly guiding you to your lost kula devata - your clan's guardian deity. A profound treasure that was stolen from you.
This is the real way home.
May Yama's dogs guide you to that family reunion that your soul has longed for through the centuries.
JAYATU DHARMARAJA