The Queen of Night

Speaking of moving beyond the limiting beliefs of the false reality, I highly encourage people to connect with the Dark Mother at this time, in whatever form resonates with you. I know Her most intimately in the forms of Hekate, Kali, Bagalamukhi, and Dhumavati. She is the Mother of Monsters and the Abyss itself. Her spiritual mercy is so immense that no curse can withstand Her serpentine fire.

But if the upheaval of the Dark Night of the Soul is too much right now and the time is not yet ripe for Her confrontation, that's completely okay too.

The dark womb of the void is now birthing all the fetuses that the patriarchal demiurge tried to abort. Every single aborted fetus is being resurrected from murder, and it is going to change our whole world.

In the blackness of the womb-void, Her eyes are burning.

So let all the falsity of this corrupt world burn down with Her.

Kali: the backdoor into Sri Vidya

For abuse survivors and torture survivors like me, for people who have suffered both mundane abuse and occult abuse at unthinkably dark levels, the pathway into bhoga and moksha is quite dark - more like a real life horror movie than the rainbows-and-butterflies vibe that is associated with Sri Vidya. Mine is an antinomian Sri Vidya, more suitable for a woman who has truly, truly been reborn in Hell. A pathway back to Life after ultimate occult terrorism. Horror, evil, and warfare with enslaving archons into which an alchemical process has miraculously inserted itself.

Kali sadhana has been part of that miracle, and through this process I have seen how Lalitha and Kali truly are the same.

There's a lot of shallow talk about the Witch Wound in the mainstream spiritual community, by people who have absolutely no understanding of what the Witch Wound actually is. How terrifying and dangerous it actually is. The same people who write about the Witch Wound will laugh at the stories of MK Ultra survivors, or mock the testimonies that Targeted Individuals give about their life experiences.

I'm not saying conspiracy nuts aren't out there. I'm saying that these very serious soul-level psychic wounds have been appropriated by a superficial, emotionally hollow community of "witches" and "yogis" who have never faced the darkness of the Underworld. Who truly cannot fathom what soul-rape really is (and I actually haven't discussed what it really is on this blog either, because the truth is too fucking dark).

And it's why those of us who have traversed the Underworld often find ourselves struggling to describe just how deep and dark the Witch Wound actually is. How it breaks you. 

How scary it is to live in an abuse paradigm programmed to want to murder me or murder my Twin because he has the audacity to want to be with me...and how isolating it is because very few people actually understand what I'm talking about.

Everything I've written on this blog represents like 2% of the actual darkness that the Witch Wound brings. Yet that darkness has been my truth, and I do not shy away from it in real life. Luckily, neither does the Dark Mother.

Because without Kali's protection and guidance, I would not understand the Life-affirming benevolence of Lalitha. Abuse victims simply can't.

After enduring torture that most people would not actually believe was possible, after surviving more murder attempts than I can even believe myself, I have become desensitized to the gentle touch. Scornful and skeptical about sweetness.

I understand the grim, fierce love of the Dark Mother, because this dark ferocity has given me real protection against the unfathomable dangers I have encountered in this lifetime. But the benevolent, lush abundance that the Sri Vidya system unfolds is actually terrifying in comparison.

For those of us who have been broken, frozen, and soul-murdered, Death does not scare us.

For those of us who have been groomed to be killed by abusers, who have been ritually programmed at the level of the unconscious mind with suicide instructions (yes, really), Death does not scare us.

Death is so, so familiar.

But the sweet, life-giving nectar of Tripura Sundari is a frightening unknown. The unfamiliar rajasic ferocity of Life's determination to LIVE is extremely scary.

And my hysterical panic in the face of that Red Queen shows me how lost I have become. How accustomed I have become to being murdered, broken and crushed.

For people who have known only Hell, any glimpse of Heaven actually feels life-threatening.

The Truth is beyond false dichotomies

Some people find my blog because they enjoyed my more political posts on Reddit. When in fact the reason I left Reddit is because I needed a major detox from the enclosed bubble reality that mainstream consciousness is trapped inside - and where they have kept me trapped in extremely subtle ways. 

The Truth exists in the hidden dark spaces between this civilization's carefully constructed, limited False Light reality, so it can't be contained in this world's political frameworks. This world's political opinions cannot categorize the Truth, because the Truth actually predates all reference points.

So does the Dharma. The Dharma predates all definitions, categories, and recorded understandings of Dharma. The Dharma is a bewildering, paradoxical Mystery that continually expands beyond all the limits of my understanding.

We are living in a time where human consciousness is about to evolve dramatically, we are living at a major tipping point and the old systems are crumbling on deep levels that reveal our collective, maniacally maintained delusions.

And this is why I have distanced myself from all the political madness as well. I renounce all parasitic shared narratives of humanity that drown out my individual voice. I no longer share anything in common with the false political positions, false accepted/popular movements, and false ideologies of this false world. Including the religious dogma that imprisons every spiritual community.

Even my Twin Flame path is based on direct lived experience, to the point where it is an almost atheist spiritual path. It is not the religious dogma of the "twin flame" egregore.

Reality lies beyond the simplistic either/or choices that the Matrix offers, which is why Underworld scapegoats like me exist beyond humanity's programming. We don't exist within this corrupt world system's false dichotomies, its labels and ideologies. 

Because we don't fit into their binary paradigm, we make their false dichotomies obsolete. We operate outside the false laws of the Matrix that are designed to keep humanity imprisoned. We represent an awakening in Consciousness that nobody has the vocabulary to describe - not even us.

That's why we have been silenced, caged, hunted, and tortured. Because the old structures cannot withstand the evolution of human consciousness.

We become scapegoats because we cannot be "fixed", because we exist outside this world's entire false paradigm and the authority its rulers have built based on this paradigm. And that's why they fear us and hate us, too. Scapegoats like us exist to make the political and religious authorities question everything that they thought they knew about the nature of reality.

Our soul blueprints don't make sense to the spiritual authorities and political authorities of this dying era, so they call us devils. Because evolution doesn't make sense to people who think their outdated maps represent the territory. We are not here to play the game that world governments, voters and political movements think they are playing. It's why many of us feel politically homeless.

It's like we see colors that don't exist yet. Our authentic natures, unbound from society's programmed categories, programmed labels and programmed false social justice movements, are part of what led us to become scapegoats.

And that programming goes deep. It has created entire spiritual paths that are trapped in this same bubble reality and its logical fallacies. It has turned every highly sophisticated system of soul liberation into yet another looping trap to keep people's souls imprisoned.

Every path out of the Matrix leads you right back into the cage you were trying to leave. It is unconsciously set up that way.

That's how soul stories like mine were erased from history, and why this entire false timeline will be destroyed so that Truth can finally come out, so that Truth can finally be set free.

Reality is far more nuanced than the fake choices that the Matrix gives you.

And so we are not here to limit ourselves to Either This Political Position or Well It Must Be That Political Position, we are here to evolve past them entirely. We are here to live in the questions. We are here to live in the paradox where the definitions of good and evil that we've gotten too comfortable with simply...dissolve. And in this, we are rescued from rigidity, stagnation, and madness.

This is how we remain unbound by the rules of fear-based conditioning. We think the Dharma is a law, but the Dharma exists to break the laws of existence, to shatter the "understanding" of the mind. The Dharma cannot be defined, it cannot be reduced to vocabulary.

Act politically in the world if you are called to, but act while internally holding the paradox. While internally seeing beyond the narrow "sides" to an issue that block out the dark, evolving Mystery underneath. Collectively as a civilization, we are growing beyond what once was. In incomprehensible ways that might be frightening to the mind. A true paradigm shift.

And collectively, we are remembering what was erased. My erased HerStory is one of many erased scapegoat stories that are coming back into consciousness. Glitches of the Matrix that the demiurge failed to delete from the system.

The Divine Midwife is helping us birth an era of Light so unknown it appears as Darkness.

Kali Amma Doesn't Lie.

And so the Reckoning begins. I had no clue that was going to happen when I was inspired last month to blog about what Smashana Kali was showing me, but this is proof. The Long Grift is truly ending.

According to what Mother Kali has shown me, things will continue to crumble for Twin Flames Universe. The elaborate occult con that Jeff and Megan (and other false teachers) have layered on top of the true Twin Flame frequency will come undone.

I have worked hard to hit Jeff and Megan with baneful magic over the years, so I have faith their web of lies, both physically and astrally, will be destroyed now.

As will everything else in this fake world that was built on the lie.

Meanwhile, true Twin Flame Unions are going to be restored from the false "twin flame" egregore. If Kali was right about Jeff and Megan getting hit with Her wrath, She was also right when She told me about the coming restoration of true Harmonious Twin Flame Union.

As this Matrix is dismantled, I may or may not have to go offline and completely silent again. My path is about going deeper and deeper into Kali sadhana now. I wish for nothing more than to immerse myself in my Beloved Perfect Mother Kali, and that likely means returning to my hiatus.

But for any Twin Flames reading this: I hope this gives you faith. You are not alone in what you've gone through. True Twin Flames have gone through absolute horror movie shit and unimaginable psychic torture as the world fought back against our awakening, as those in power did everything they could to prevent our consciousness from evolving. Since the false "twin flame" egregore is part of mainstream consciousness, it has also kept us locked down out of terror at losing its narrative control.

Their compression locks are finally failing. Kali is Vimochani, the Liberator.

And as She liberates us, the oppressors and tyrants are finally trapped in the cages their own arrogance built. Now false gurus like Jeff and Megan will be cast down into the Underworld, into the eternal hellfire where they belong.

Love never fails.

May the Mirror Dharma of Twin Flames prevail! 

JAI JAI KALI!