Have you noticed that you and your Twin Flame are unintentional trendsetters? Like if you and your Twin do something, create something, or say something, people start imitating you? Even if you two go to an empty room, it suddenly fills up as people decide to follow you there? Do people want to stand around you two as if soaking in your energy? If so, that's a normal occurrence on this path. It's a real thing.
There is a dark side to this phenomenon, and it's the psychic doppelganger, or the copycat who is an imposter. Some Twin Flame communities talk about this as the "karmic" or "third party", the person your Twin might be dating who is weirdly just like you, but the copycat needn't be the "karmic". This imposter can be anyone who seems to be energetically hunting you down to siphon your energy and assume your identity, who can feel when your energy expands, who seems to have a psychopathic, unconscious clairvoyant sight into you that lets them see just enough of you to start copying and assimilating your soul essence. Who seems to psychically stalk you, rip words out of your head, and attempt to become you in ways that are energetic, invasive, and terrifying.
This happened to me. It has happened to many women I know on the Twin Flame path. I described it to my friends as "soul-rape", because it got to the point where it wasn't just imitation. It was energetic invasion, like people (mostly women) were biting off chunks of my soul. I have lived the Little Mermaid's experience with Ursula/Vanessa the voice-stealer. It is terrifying, and it is psychological and occult torture.
There are different levels to healing this vampirism, and different angles of approach. Honestly, you will probably need to work through all of the approaches I suggest here, and perhaps more. I have not completely healed this pattern. At this point I have realized that this pattern only heals through spiritual death and rebirth.
Narcissism
The soul-rape pattern is narcissism writ large. Multi-dimensional, occult narcissism. It's why some Muggle descriptions of narcissists are as "Soul Hunters". You are caught up in a narcissistic family dynamic or societal dynamic in which you are also "fake". The "you" that you believe yourself to be is actually a copy of your soul essence because you had to start energetically masking at a young age in order to survive. This likely has past life roots and ancestral roots, which are too complicated and weird to explain here, but you will discover it for yourself as you delve into the pain caused by your doppelganger(s).
It's important at this point not to victim-blame yourself once you realize that you also have some narcissistic traits as a result of the society you grew up in. You have been hunted, deliberately stalked and hunted, and it's not your fault. Someone saw your light and decided to eat it instead of loving you for shining that light. Allow yourself to get angry, allow yourself to grieve. Just like how a physical rape victim didn't deserve to get raped, your soul didn't deserve to get raped.
The False Feminine Matrix/False Mother Matrix
I'm writing about this from the viewpoint of a woman who has been soul-raped, and who has had to delve into a dark underworld of female-on-female betrayal, falsity and insanity. This is the realm of Lilith and abusive women, especially abusive mothers. This is the ancient agony of Medusa, scapegoated and cursed by her beloved mother goddess Athena. This is the suffering of Psyche, hated by Venus/Aphrodite and obsessively stalked and copied by her envious sisters, who want Cupid/Eros for themselves.
If your mother is jealous of you, wants to copy your life and steal your identity, you will notice other women in the family psychically following her lead and energetically eating you. Your Twin Flame can also start behaving like this.
Leaving this false feminine matrix is excruciatingly difficult, and involves a long, dangerous, lonely process of rebirthing yourself out of that paradigm (during which your own deeply embedded toxic feminine traits will start to loosen and release) and into the Divine Feminine frequency. This is in many ways a lifelong process, it's never "done". And it can feel like it's going to kill you; it brings you very close to death.
Make no mistake, this is curse-level shit and it's not just trauma. It is unconscious, obsessive, psychic stalking from demon-possessed women, and it feels exactly like a curse. It looks and feels like black magic. The women who are soul-raping you will actively attempt to drive you to your death, they are that obsessed with becoming you and taking your place. Let me repeat that: they want you to die because they need to be you.
This is the Underworld, where the depths of human psychopathy can become known to you.
My advice is unconventional. Yes, do your shadow work. Heal the places where you have not been authentic, where you compete with other women. Open your heart. Enter the womb and purge all the darkness it has been holding for you. Release the masks of the false feminine, let the Medusa in you return to her original innocent state with beautiful long hair and clear, innocent eyes.
But owning your own toxic patterns is not enough when you're being soul-raped. You are allowed to fight back. You are allowed to use defensive and protective magick such as the Return to Sender spell. You are allowed to fight back with more baneful workings if you are called there.
In fact, at one point when I got on my knees and prayed fervently to be shown the way to free myself from the relentless abuse and energetic rape from these women, the Divine Mother directly dropped a baneful working into my head.
I had never read about black magic before, but She directly told me exactly what to do. It was nasty, dirty and vicious. It fucking worked. The soul-raper imposter women (my female cousins, my Twin's "karmic", false spiritual coaches and others) backed off as if freight trains had hit them, and some of them died.
My sanity slowly began to return. My inner child began to communicate with me again, grateful that I was wielding black magic. Grateful that the temple was being cleansed with fire.
In my case, while the soul-rape pattern isn't over, it has brought me into deep surrender and self-love. It has taught me the value of my sacred rage and the frequency of unconditional love inside sacred rage.
Buried Alive
Mimicking my near-death experience in my mother's womb (strangled, dying, had to come out by C-section), for the past decade I have been in a trap designed to prevent me from feeling my feelings. It's been like that for longer than a decade, of course, but I began my healing journey in earnest in 2014/2015.
Disabled. Severely and repeatedly abused until the disabilities became worse. Any healthcare professional I turned to for help - and I turned to hundreds of them, and spent every penny I had - would literally prevent and sabotage my healing process. It was institutional, structural neglect, hate, and gaslighting that repeatedly failed me every time I suffered and then blamed me for it, and my nervous system would not relax and feel the buried pain because it knew it was not safe. I needed safety and holding and non-judgment to actually release my trauma, and nobody gave that to me. For years.
It went as far as psychic lies, actual false realities made up about me by other people's subconscious minds and "confirmed" through divination. Burying my truth so deeply, silencing my voice so thoroughly, that spiritual coaches and gurus would literally intuit wrong things about me and my path, and then convince me they were right. When I failed to live up to their expectations, which entire groups of people confirmed with psychic sight, I was blamed for falling away from an easily granted timeline. Blamed for "not doing the work".
Between this and battling heavy, unconscious mind control, trapped in a structure designed to destroy with expertise and apparently unlimited power, I ate other people's sins because I had no other way to stay alive and crumbled into my grave. Here, buried alive, I became an easier target to energetically rape.
My mouth was sewn shut and I was buried alive, and the truth buried with me, because an entire society needed me to be their scapegoat and therefore couldn't afford to let me process my trauma. I was trapped in their blind spots, sabotaged by their combination of denial and self-righteous arrogance, and destroyed by their projections.
And then there was the brutal, brutal shame I carried - and still carry, actually - for not being able to release my pain, because nobody would admit that this society is set up to sabotage any attempts to release that pain.
They never wanted me to heal. An entire reality conspired to prevent me from healing. Even now, I am fighting for my life and my right to not be abused by an overarching consciousness that only sees me as something to slander, censor, gaslight, and steal from.
And they have the gall to use words like "self-destruction" or "self-sabotage" against soul-rape victims. The fucking audacity.
The Lies of Society
If you're also going through this, you need to know how big it is.
The soul-rape that is happening to you is actually a microcosmic reflection of how the world really works, under all its pretty little lies and mass collective denial. You're just getting treated to the truth because Twin Flames represent pure love, and there is an ego consciousness that runs this world that hates Twin Flame love.
This is difficult to talk about, but in your recovery process from what the imposters have done to you, you will notice that there is a collective shadow that is being healed through you, not a personal shadow that you need to heal on your own. The rape consciousness that your imposters are possessed by exists everywhere. Books written by soul-rapers, social movements run by soul-rapers, industries controlled by soul-rapers, and so on. It's a rape consciousness that has infected everything, right down to our destructive addiction to using fossil fuels even though it's killing us.
You are being pummeled, exploited, stolen from and tortured as the Earth is being pummeled, exploited, stolen from and tortured. The lies used to exploit and soul-rape you are the lies that first world governments use to exploit and soul-rape poorer countries. Your body has become the battleground of Fear versus Love.
Even other women can rape the Divine Feminine.
An Ancient Crime
This is all coming to your attention to shake off the spiritual amnesia. The Goddess was once ripped apart and ripped from our arms, and replaced by a patriarchy-pleasing copycat. Eve born from Adam's rib, so much more palatable than Asherah, who birthed Adam from her vulva. So much more palatable than Lilith (she has an abusive shadow side and a complicated light side).
Her truths, words, identity, and values were stolen and changed to suit this new regime. Raped out of Her soul, then twisted and distorted to serve the agenda of ego rather than the liberation of Love.
Her wildness became sin. Her love became a object of scorn. Her altar of love became chains of enslavement. From Goddess to Scapegoat.
As we ascend out of the false feminine matrix and into the frequency of the Divine Feminine, we will encounter this ancient, covered up crime. It will appear like a ceiling you just can't break through, as if you've been deliberately trapped. There are hidden forces in place that will try to prevent us from breaking the Goddess out of Her cage, that will try to silence and intimidate us into shutting up about the truth. Because they have gained a lot of wealth, power, and privilege from their ancient lies.
Everything they built on Her blood and bones stands to crumble down like The Tower card.
Your Twin Flame will also appear in his or her most egoic, demonic self when you're dealing with this ancient genocide pattern. It doesn't matter if your Twin Flame is a man or a woman - remember, even women can rape the Divine Feminine.
Recovering what was lost in this spiritual amnesia is hard. Unbelievably hard. We are working without support, and our minds have been corrupted and colonized by the "God" and the "truths" of a completely false reality. We don't know what we don't know, and nobody wants to help us find out.
It takes years to untangle this mess, to remove the poisons of this corrupted world from ourselves. But we must do it.
There is a broken promise that is fiercely calling to be fulfilled. A corpse screaming to be resurrected. Listen to Her call. Find Her.
What happens when the vampires are shaken off?
I want you to know that these vampires can be shaken off. It's slowly happening for me, and it's not really my doing. It's surrender and Grace, and it does not look "spiritual" or "enlightened". It's a down-in-the-dirt awakening from the Underworld hell realm of the false feminine, and looks like failure, fear, intense shame, and not knowing what the fuck is going on.
It looks like crazed grief.
It looks like murderous rage.
Every victory is bittersweet.
This process does not appear "spiritual" at all, but it's exactly what the road to Love actually looks like.
From what I've been observing, the soul-rapers start to disappear as you painfully purge out everything that connected you to them. Your Twin Flame undergoes an equally volatile ego death. And you are not a victorious conqueror through this process, you are humbled and shaken. You are truly no "better" than the imposters who tried to copy you (but don't weaponize this realization to think you "deserved" to be copied and stolen from either).
Ultimately, the copycats who want to steal your Twin and your life are never going to be able to get away with it. You know why? Because at every test, they’ll flee for the back door exit. The people who actually make it into Union and stay there are given a particular kind of grace…all exits are blocked off. Even if that means their physical and mental health being damaged so that they have no option to run away to an ego game…they’re forced to stay in place and heal.
When Twins are coming into Union the energy can be so volatile that they’ll always be tempted to run away. What keeps them there is the grace of having all back door exits sealed off. The grace of having no luck with their ego games. That’s the only thing that forces Twins to stay in place and heal. They know that their only choices are to evolve or to die. There’s no third way out for them.
Vampires, on the other hand, have luck with their ego games…which is why they think they can steal Twin Flame Union. But this time they are reaching for something way above their pay grade. If you try to reach into the dragon’s lair, you will get burned. You can’t just walk back calmly to your old vampiric life when you fail at stealing Twin Flame energy. Oh no…your descent back to your vibrational set point is The Tower.
They’ll run for the exits when shit gets too real, and they’ll see that the only way back is a hard fall.
This is why you'll sometimes see your copycats dying, actually physically dying, as you come into Union. It's scary, sad and disheartening, but that was how closed their hearts were. How empty they were in the end, when they could no longer eat your Light.